Well, I’ve been meaning to get this post up for four days. The fact is, I still want to blog, be active in this community, but I don’t know how things are going to turn out. If you’ve been following my updates, you already know some of what’s been going on.
Brief recap of the past month: My father went from not doing great to doing terrible in the space of about two weeks and, after two trips to the hospital, died at home on the sixteenth of July. My sister, who lives out of state, came up for a few days with her husband, during which time we had the funeral.
Now, I work for my mom, I have ever since I graduated high school. Before that, too, technically, because I was home schooled and my mom was the one in change of my schooling, even when she bought a business and started working full time. So, because of all this, and the way my father was, I don’t have the proper paperwork/documentation that I need to get a job anywhere else.
So I’ve been trying to get all that lined up for the past two weeks or so. The week my father died, we were closed except the Monday I worked and the Saturday my mom reopened. The week before that, he was in such bad shape that my mom and my brother both stayed home to take care of him and I worked solo at my mom’s store. Because of this, I discovered that her business is not doing well (because she’s got this mentality that she has to do everything herself and will seldom if ever ask for help). My brother is barely working at the moment and we cannot live on a one person income when the business is so slow. (Also, my father never wanted his kids to get the proper documentation to work – like a social security number and my mom never pushed it, so my married sister is the only one that has one right now.)
I might be able to get a job in September, the way things are set up right now. And I say ‘might’ because I will have the proof of identity and age that I’ll need for a social security number, but if they ask for any documentation to prove I’ve never had a number before…I have nothing to prove that because they mentioned things like school records (which I was home schooled with my parents doing everything so I don’t have those) and tax records (which I never had to pay taxes because I was always payed off the books by my mom). (I’m also going to be trying to convince my brother to get himself a worthwhile job – though our father really screwed things up for his kids but good.)
What that all means to you is that I have no energy for this blog right now and I’m just barely reading. (I’ve finished one book since the 23rd that wasn’t a re-read.) Then, once I manage to get a job somewhere, (I know where I want to work) I’ll probably not have time or energy for this blog for quite a while. (Not to mention the fact that I do not have internet at home and have always done all my blogging and socializing at my mom’s store, so I won’t even have much access to the internet. I hopefully will be able to dump my computer off with my mom occasionally, to at least download new games and record my netflix video’s.
So, that’s the state of things for me right now and I just want all the waiting to be over and to already have my job that I can start next week. Sadly, life doesn’t work like that.
Now, as for my books…Honestly, last week I was looking at a couple of the first books I’ve read in July and I can’t believe it wasn’t months ago that I read them. It seems so long ago. I will say that I reread a lot, knowing that my attention wouldn’t be truly on what I was reading, and I didn’t add those to this recap list. (And when I’m stressed out, I apparently read gay romances.)
Best Book/s of the Month
Other Good Books of the Month
Books I Don’t Recommend
What I’ve Finished Watching
Season one of House of Anubis. It was a birthday gift and the show was really fun. I think I would have liked it more when I was closer in age to the kids, because all their relationship drama was super annoying (though I’d probably have found it annoying then, too) but the plot was kind of awesome. I also watched season one of Killjoys and…liked it a lot more than I expected. I mean, we have a totally awesome woman of color main character in a sci-fi series that was created by a woman. (Who also worked on Lost Girl, which is a show I was already interested in and learning that made it jump several shows in my queue.) Also Killjoys doesn’t have any signs of the love triangle (one woman, two brothers) that I was worried about. (There is some interest/romance between the woman and one of the men, but the other thinks of her like a sister.)
I watched Final Fantasy: XV: Kingsglaive and… Okay, I love Final Fantasy. (Advent Children was awesome, loved the OVA about Zack, played parts of XII and adored it before my PS…broke.) So, yeah, I love Final Fantasy. But, seriously, this movie was bad. So was The Spirits Within. So…I might be done with this franchise’s movies. Also finally watched Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows: Part 2 and…well, I think it took me four days to watch the whole movie. I didn’t like it, though it was still better than the book. (Except the Neville/snake scene was much more awesome in the book than the movie. Though I am glad they didn’t cut it out.) Anyway, HP series – books and movies – finished, so, yay! I also watched G.B.F. The movie was…insulting. But, at least it was insulting to everyone? Also watched Dragon Age: Dawn of the Seeker and…Cassandra is awesome. I mean, I love her in Inquisition – she’s my favorite Dragon Age woman and pretty much my second favorite character over all – and this movie was so, so perfect. So, yeah, glad I finally got around to watching that one.
Watching & Playing
I usually adore this guy’s music – especially his singles – and this song is one of my two favorites. (The only one it didn’t dethrone was The Remedy and nothing probably ever will.)
I definitely consider myself a Seether fan, but, strangely enough, I don’t ever recall hearing this song before just recently. (August, technically, but who cares. I’ll be playing it on repeat because it’s awesome.)
I’ve not really been playing much for games. I finished up Hercules: Fleecing the Fleece – which is a time management game – and played Wayhaven Chronicles: book one which is a cyoa style computer book/game thing-y from the same otome-style game author as The Lady’s Choice – which I played and is awesome! – and The Crossroads – which I haven’t played. But Wayhaven Chronicles series has started out awesomely and I especially loved the fact that you can have same-sex romances – which is pretty much a requisite for me anymore. I’ve also been muddling along with Borderlands and getting more and more frustrated with the fighting and bored with the lack of a plot and Of Orcs and Men and getting super bored with the fighting on it – though the plot is good. I’ve got about half a dozen games started, but none of them are really catching my interest.
So, there’s been my July. A lot has happened, most of it not good, and if anyone has advice for finding time to blog while holding down a full time job, I’d love to here it. (Because, eventually we will either get internet where we are, or I’m going to move somewhere I can get internet. Maybe move to another town, too, though I’d love to convince my mom and brother to move with me.)